Feeling Like a Lame Duck

Guys, I’m feeling so meh lately.

I want to blame it on the weather but honestly, I think my brain is caught between the end of the year and anticipating the new year and feeling a bit overwhelmed.

I want to do so many things next year. SO MANY!

ALL THE THINGS!

And I just came off of a month where I had to write a lot. So I feel in limbo and spent and restless and uninspired and constipated and GAAAAAAAAAAH!

I’ll get over it. I know I just have to brain dump and get out of my own head and just DO SHIT already vs think and think and think and then freak out and —

DEEP BREATH.

I feel so behind. Both behind for homeschooling the kids and my own work. And I know there’s an easy way out of it. All I have to do is just start doing stuff.

It’s both that easy and that hard.

Sooooooo…

Here’s what I would like to do for December. I’m only telling you good people because how else can I keep myself accountable? It’s not like I’m an actual grown up and can do things without expecting praise and accolades.

I NEED ALL THE EXTERNAL REWARDS I CAN GET, OK?

I will check back in at the end of the month and see how well I did. (Separate from my Suck It Up posts.)

1) Get back to homeschooling my children.

In particular, adding science back in. I have been sooooooo lazy. I really need to just get over having the “perfect” curriculum and just do what I have already.

DO WHAT I HAVE ALREADY!!!

2) PURGE PURGE PURGE.

In anticipation of Christmas and all the shit I will end up buying despite saying that I will not give my children even more presents, I know I will mysteriously accumulate more annoying toys. (I still have Christmas presents I haven’t given them from last year and the year before.) I have to get ahead of this inevitable avalanche of evil and purge broken and annoying toys.

I ANGRY CLEANED the other day and it was so satisfying.

I am anticipating more angry cleaning.

3) WRITE WRITE WRITE

I have totally slacked in the writing department lately. My brain needed a break. How can I pitch sites for my writing if I’m not writing??

Also, how can I keep you good people interested in me if I don’t write? PAY ATTENTION TO ME!!

4) Plan for 2018.

I want to do so many things but without a plan, it’s just useless wishing. Some folks say I should just do things – but I’m anal retentive. I need a plan in order for it to become habit. But then I see the plan and get overwhelmed.

It’s a vicious cycle.

Ok. If I add any more things for me to do in December I will totally bury my head and not resurface until January and then I will have wasted this last month of the year.

Wish me luck! (And do you feel the same? Let me know in the comments.)